Some where inside.

I tried to write a love song

You were on my mind

I screwed up bits of paper 

And scrubbed out many lines. 

I tried to think of good things

But some memories are a blur

The pictures I once took of you

No longer where they were

I tired to write a sonet

With lines so crip and clear

But I seem to have lost everything

Emotions feeling bare

I tried to paint

Your name upon my walls

Brush strokes all messy  

Holes were only scored

So I thought I would write a poem

Put these words outside

The Wind took my pen 

Rain washed it away

I will try again

Maybe

Maybe one day 

Bleeding.

What ever happend to my heart. 

Blood pours in streams. 

It seeps out through my veins

Cutting at my dreams. 

Life seems to have left me. 

Broken, tattered and torn. 

I can't feel any different

Even in Sunshine's new Morn. 

I could wrap my self in blankets

or find comfort in sheets of satin

But still my heart is bleeding

This is my life's new pattern. 

Darkness encases me

Even though light shines

Walls start to close in

On this broken heart of mine. 

I thought I had found a new Love.

I can't do it, I can't go on

Waiting to hear from you, constantly checking my phone is switched on. 

I have been through so much pain before, 

gave so much only to be ignored.

I can't let you do that to me too, 

but still I cing on, I thought you were my start of all things new.

I fell in love in just a few days,

believed when you said I gave you a feeling you could only describe as a haze.  

It is a rollercoaster that I am riding on, 

I think I am losing you, please help me Angels song. 

I need your ams, I need your soul with mine, 

I need you every day, I need you all the time. 

Phone please ring and let it be you, 

I can't be ignored it tears me in two. ...Vivienne Gill.

It may be rainging so hard out there , rainbows gone and  clouds gathered in pairs.

But all I see is bright blue skies, happy new wishes in your gorgeous eyes. 

I touch your skin and watch you smile, 

watch you sleep for just a little while .

I breathe you in and promise to be,

the one that stays close and to help set all your dreams free. 

I take your heart and hold it dear, 

with you my love, life is so clear. 

So upon his rainy, rainbow gone day, 

flowers bloom and laughter stays. 

This is purely "it" for me, 

Love in a storm, it is what's meant to be. ...Vivienne Gill

Turn the Sun blue and burn the skies red. I am left with no emotion, there is nothing, it's dead.
Pale and broken my skin has turned grey. My trust all gone. Feelings went. They ran away.
Day times are so cold and nights are so bare. Look up to the ceiling and just sit here and stare.
The ticking clock listens to pools of tears. What happened to all those glistening years ?
Throw the camera and take it away. Pictures and memories to painful to stay.
Locked in, I can't face the Sun, burn all the stars my living is done.
      Vivienne Gill

Let me fall from your fingertips and slip from your hands. Release your grasp from me , let me tred the shining sands.
Let me follow budding Bluebells and float among the stars, let Violets surround me and Angels heal my scars.
Let skies change their colours all for me, please don't be selfish, just try to set me free.
Let me have a new Dawn, where the dew clings to my soul, let me feel the fresh breeze of a world with a new goal.
Help to make it simple and understand my need , let the pretty Dandelions plant me a new seed.
Let me have new fields full of striking gold, please don't be selfish and let go of this hold. ....Vivienne Gill

Loving you is so easy, you gave my life new glow.
You showed me so much passion and released my heart to grow.
Just a few days of intense souls, pouring in together, laid in your arms and safely wishing to last  forever.
 I give you my being, everything I am. I crave your tender kisses and hold you in my hand.
Give you words of so softly whispered dreams.
 Take my heart and bind it, believe in what I say. I will hold you here always, precious in every way.
You are my new sunshine, you are all my worth. I am so very glad I found you right here on my earth. ....Vivienne Gill

Please take all this pain, tear it from my skin and pull it from my vein.
My blood running black, my heart tearing , ripped into pieces and when you turn your back.
I once was your life, everything you breathed, but now you show anger, and now you seeth.
You caused this hurt that made my Sun die, you showed no mercy when you left me to cry.
I'll fall into the sea , let the waves take me, help me dear Angles, don't forsake me.
Take me to sunshine and all that is warm, help me ride over this tumbling storm.
Give me new tides and things anew, give me a moon with clear skies in it to.
I'll plead with the Gods to give me some love, wrap me in arms sent down from above.
Give me precious light and help me walk through, into a new life with new hope in it too. ...Vivienne Gill

Perfection comes in many different forms ...so maybe we all have a touch of prefectness ! 

Dance like you have no care,
love like you give your soul,
sing like you own the stars,
and live like it’s all brand new. ...Vivienne Gill

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An Angel spoke to me today, she touched my hand and showed me the way. 
Her voice so soft and full of grace, kindness and forgiving, eyes as pretty as silk and lace. 
She gently whispered of dreams to come, said there would be stars mixed in with the sun.
 Listen to your heart she asked of me, Look into deep memories and set myself free.
 Don't be afraid, listen to my song, go ahead and live a new life long.
 I smiled in her light, her honest glow...You will always be my best Friend for all the love that you show......Vivienne Gill

There is a Sun that rules our Sky with the beautiful star that puts the glint in our eye. The Moon and at peace and shores that sway. Guiding us through every gorgeous day. Evenings so still and soft rain so pure for you to share with those your heart adore. Hold cherished ones close and whisper in their ear. Tell them of love and wipe away their tear. Give them sweet memories and build them a song. Let you heart to them always belong. .......Vivienne Gill.

I think we should all take the time to look after our friends and loved ones.
 Let them always know that we care and will always be there for them.
 Because you never know when that day will come when you lose one of them !

To love me is to know me...to accept who I am..to accept that I have a family...to put up with my crazy days...to laugh at my jokes even though they may not be funny...to accept that I am not perfect and do silly things...to hold my hand through tough times and stand by my side..and hug me when I really need it....Vivienne Gill

The storm that passed spread out its wings and created a circle of such devastating things.
 It wove it's way around your path, crashed it's fingers and stole your laugh. 
It wrapped up your love and threw it aside, encased it in rain along with your pride.
 It stole your sun and left you grey, pinned down your hopes and left you astray.
 The clouds burst in and cut your heart, pulled out your feelings and ripped them apart.
 It tried to destroy you, turn your kindness to stone and went so fast leaving you all alone. 
Threatened in darkness, and clung to cold walls, wake up the little Angels and wait for their calls.
 Let them bring back pure skies and love all abound. Let them lift up your heart and hear it's healing sound
. Let the grass feel cool under the caress of your hand and the gentle breeze mend your thoughts in the glowing sand......Vivienne Gill

Leave your past, turn your head, go out and to that new future instead. 
The stars are sparkling and looking down, let them ease away your furrowed frown.
 Cuddle the Sun and embrace it with glee, spread your wings and set yourself free. 
Laugh at the wind and feel the rain, let it wrap all around you and ease your pain.
 Go show the world your dreams are not done, you have many more that are waiting to come.
 Love again with your head held high, and take away that big heavy sigh. 
The ones that hurt you will still be there, but in distant memories where you'll still care
. Light up the dark with every new smile , start a new journey, enjoy every new mile .....Vivienne Gill

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak.... sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.

Burn the sun and kill the stars, put out all light so you can't see my scars.
 A heart breaking into no more but dust, all my dreams turned to rust.
 You took my love, you stole my soul, ground it all up and threw into a hole.
 It meant nothing more to you than cold stone, pale and afraid and left all alone. 
So shut the curtains and close the blinds, go away deep thoughts that keep you on my mind.
 I'll scream at the Moon and shout abuse at the sky, this is what if feels like when inside you die.....Vivienne Gill

They took my hands and stole my heart, became my treasure right from the start.
 Gave me sunshine and happiness so sweet, smiles that just sweep me off my feet.
Turned my life upside down and give me cuddles to ease any frown.
 I made a promise to love them dear, each moment with them so beautifully clear.
 Little precious ones you light up my Skies,you are my Angles, my life, my prize.
 Your laughter is gorgeous and your little face so pure...my beautiful Grandchildren...you I ADORE xxxxxxxxxxxx

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Look up at the Moon I said, dance with the stars and let glitter fall softly on your sweet little head.
Run around and spin in the Sun, leap through the grass and have such fun.
Let them all hear your laughter, see your smiles and watch your giggles for ever after.
Two little Angels with so much in store, run through the sand and play at the shore.
 Be the best that you can in all you desire, takemy love in your hands , it will never expire.
As your Grandmother I am so very proud, and for you two I truly vowed. To show you the way, and hold you so dear, in my heart always, every day, every year. 
So hush my little treasures and sleep so softly , have cosy little dreams of all things lovely. When you awake in the morning I will be there for you, my two little Angels, I deeply love you. .............For my Grandchildren xxxxx

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Throw your dreams into the stars at night and you may be suprised at what they bring back for you...

There are raindrops on my window pane running down in streams.
 Thunder storms in Heaven and stars without a gleam. 
Without you there is a chill in the air, the Moon hides his eyes and the Sun no longer flicks her hair.
 I can't feel the grass beneath my feet and the breeze across my hands. I find it hard, the steps to take across the darkened sands.
 Angels have lost their glitter and birds no longer sing, I feel so lost in life, Mum and Dad I loved you for giving me everything.
 I wish to see you just one more time and tell you that you I miss, all the warmth and guidance and that special goodnight kiss. ...Vivienne Gill

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Hi.
My names is Vivienne Gill and I write short poetry which is all from past or new experiences in my life.
Some are quite deep and meaningful, others are just a silly bit of fun.

I thought the Sun had burst into my heart, only to find we are now apart.
 It took a hold of everything I was seeing, only to draw back and take my whole being.
 Left me frozen with a tear stained cheek, broke my soul and made me weak.
 I had wonderful dreams , ideas and plans, only to lose the warm caress of your hands.
 Longing for that sparkle and such intense feeling, now I close the curtains and try to hide from not healing.
 I show a smile to all that see me, pretend all is fine and you still believe in me.
 I send you love and a sweet soft cuddle, while I sit here alone all tattered and muddled. ..........Vivienne Gill