Struggle

Lions dandy and flutter bys

Everything twisted

As a sad life slides

Hands that won't move 

On clocks with no tick

Tears of laughter turning bitter

Until I feel sick

Wrong sized shoes

Crumpling up my toes

Blisters surrounding my heart 

No longer sweet smells 

Falling on my nose 

Backward floating clouds

Rain running up

Soot in my veins

Pumping so loud

Blooms that wither 

Petals never spring

Frames have lost pictures

A phone forgotten how to ring

A rose without thorn

Greens turned blue

A suspicious living 

Nothing on cue

Life now scrambled

Snow that glows warm

The fox stopped hunting

Night took over my dawn

Birds lose their wings

All breeze has stopped blowing

Darkness decended

Creating evil unknowing

Trickery in trees

No leaves to be seen

Dirt disgusting

Replacing the clean

Waves have gone

Sea remains still

Earth no longer spins

Universe has lost her will

This all changed the day you were taken

My world caved in

Left me forsaken

Angels now keep you

Amongst the stars

I am left here 

Cradling scars

So come down from Heaven 

 Hold me tight 

Take both my hands 

And give me back light

Stay with me here

Please, never let go

Just come back

So this world can glow

Don't let me be lonely

Stay by my side

I'm sitting here struggling

As my sad life slides. 

Disturbing The Peace

The Crickets tell me 

As I wander through the park

The full moon is creeping

Soon it will be dark

When forces of Evil 

Spread out their wings

Gather up our air

And breathe it in

Come to cause trouble

And poke at our dreams

Snatch at our hearts

Drinking blood

From it's seams

They hide in dust

Remaining so still

Willing us to trip 

To take us against our will

Twisting in the shadows

No reflections in puddles

They live in confusion

Minds black in a muddle

They are the unclaimed 

That walk grey lands

No heaven, no hell

No help in Angles hands

They are the dammed 

Of  love forsaken

Tattered dark misery

All hope was stripped and ruthlessly taken 

They were the saddened and deeply depressed

On a journey of nothing 

What else was there left

But to follow a path of burning hell

Down ashened stairs 

Where the flames swell

So I must quicken my step

And stay out of their way

As it scares me to know 

They will come for me one day. 

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Bleakness

Love is not triumphant

It does not win at all

It causes pain and weekness

As a rain of tears fall

Sends you to a dark place

Where evil things are said

Twists your mind to unknow places

Where every thought seems dead

Unable to find a journey

Of where to start again

A bleak path of troubles

Laid out in all your pain

Love is not our saviour

It blinds all we see

It takes away our dignity

And won't let us be

A sad little curse


It wait's there, twisted
Curling in your brain
What do you do
Apart from re live it again
Walls can't protect you
There is no shelter to hide
Raindrops keep falling
Into your heart they slide
Cries in the night go out as lonely pleas
No one will listen
They get so lost in the breeze
Demons take over
Seeping black through your skin
Vampires are waiting
To take you as their Kin
Red droplets are shown
Sparkling in your eyes
Fall on your face
And stain your skies
Help is not coming
It's time to give in
Let the Devil take you
Enfold you in sin
Give up this world
And no longer be
A sad little curse
Never to be set free

S.O.S

I had this idea about saving the World

Wrap orbits in blankets

Hide us beneath the clouds

Spread pretty petals 

From the moon to the sun

Send signals of peace 

And make poverty run

Banish diseases

And put things right

Give fields a chance

To bloom in light

Take away crimes

And painfun sin

But is this where to start 

Where to begin

Do we burn prisons

An make us all pure

Do we build new defences

Around the ground

We adore

Do we put up fences

But tear down walls

How do we rid our world

Of incredible fools

But how can I start this 

How could it be

Put into place 

When I can't even save me

Madeleine.

I watch her in the Sun 

As she flicks her hair

Keep a hold of her smiles

And will always be there

She is a pure treasure 

Of shining gold

Mine so precious

To always hold

I listen to her laughter 

And her crazy ideas

I cuddle and comfort her

Through her pain and her tears

She is such beauty

Like Bluebells in Spring

As fragile as a rose

With a heart that sings

She is all that I love 

With a heart so dear 

We have shared so much 

Year after year 

In her whole being 

I see a wonderous Soul

She is my little Angel 

With only one goal

To guide her Children

As I have done

She is my Daughter

An amazing one ! 

Confliction.

He told me to do it

That voice in my head

What have you got to lose

Afterall, your emotions are led

By the pain in your heart

Where the mind gets twisted

All thoughts are disturbed

And almost black listed

What does it matter

That everything is hazy

Dance with me

Show the world you have turned crazy

Let them see through

Your paled skin

Watch you point fingers

With aggression at kin

Shout abuse and create an arguing storm

Laugh at the universe 

Unwelcome the dawn

It's driven you mad

I can see

So why not do it

And dance with me. 

Confetti.

Confetti once shone on the floor

Wedding bells died

As you walked out the door

All that love oozing

Like melted down gold

Promises in Church

Turned out in the cold

Happiness lost

As needles in hay

What was the point

Of that Glamours day

I shiver and cry 

Into that dress

Jewels I wore

Broken in distress

Cards ripped up photos destroyed

Abandoned by a heart annoyed

Pettals pulled from a once

Beautiful boquet

Spred on the floor in disarray

Tiara still sparkling

Amongst shattered dreams

Sunlight showing 

Glistening tears of streams

Gone are days 

Of  loving as one

Nights full of darkness

Have now begun

Heartache beside me

My company in bed

Mourfull sadness

Crashing into my head

Goodbye to a future

That I thought was won

I'll sit here watching 

The confetti run. 

Little Sentances.

I have this thought in my head

Circling round and round

Little sentances full of dread

A  shocking laugh took over my brain

Shuddering my body

Why can I hear that again

It's always in darkness 

That this encases me 

Round and round

I can't set my mind  free

It's like fingers crawling

through your insides

From my toes to my stomach

Evil twisting, all good thoughts slide

Sunshine and fairy dust all fall away

There is a dark side in me 

That comes out to play

It spins out a warning

of all things black

It scares me to think

Of the prayer I lack

It takes my strength

It burns up my soul 

Eats up my bible

And my whole life's goal

I'll close my eyes 

And try to release

The anger and hurt 

Of not finding peace. 

But there in my dreams

It finds it's way 

There is a dark inside me 

That will always

Be there to stay. 

Little heart of mine.

In this little heart of mine

There is so much room for giving

As he looks and smiles at me

I know I have started living

Eyes so full of oceans blue

With him I'm so secure 

You see, this Man

I really do adore

I know it will be forever 

Until the end is to come 

I can't help but think of him

He is my Morning Sun

Every thing I feel inside 

all of what he is

Is in this little heart of mine

For what he always gives. 

Haunted.

Chaires topple

Tables slide

All aided by a Ghost

They hide in dark places

And scare me the most

Just because I can't see them

Doesn't mean they are not there 

Hidden under my duvet

Listening to every creak on the stair

I wonder what they want from me

Why they call my name

Lights flicker on and off

They like to play their games

I beg comfort from huddled in my bed

Drawing up my pillow

To cover my sleepy dread

Shadows creep over me

I swear I see a light

Twinkling on the ceiling

Giving me such a fright

I need to fall asleep now

Wishing they would go away

But every sense can feel them

I think they are here to stay

They are not loved ones watching over me 

They dance along my walls

With such cruelty

I scramble out prayers

Demanding them to disappear

I can't help but lay so still

Drowning in my fear

Hurry up day light

Take these Ghosts away

I wish they would stop

Making the chandelier sway

Tapping on the floor boards 

opening a  door

I really don't want my skin

To prickle any more

But as I start to fall asleep

Every thing goes still

Darkness is free again

All around me so tranquill

Warm and cosy

Tiny steps to Heaven.

Once upon a castle

In a fairy taled land

I took tiny steps to Heaven

A Princess took my hand

My living wasn't ending

I had gone to play with stars

Glitter sprinkled at my feet

Healing all my scars

I laid in fields of blossom

With soft silky sleeves

My Angel gently spoke to me

"Here you will never have to leave"

She said I cold watch over 

Everyone I love

I could dance with pretty moon beams

And touch the flying Dove

My living isn't over

Here it's just begun

I'll tumbel over cotton clouds

And watch you from the sun. 

The Devil Inside.

Angels wings won't find me

Never to hear their song

The devil put a curse on me

He said my soul was wrong

But I know I am good inside

And adore the ones I love

He laughed such a sickening cry

As he stripped  feathers from a Dove

I pleaded and argued

We had such a row

Only to him

He said 

I must always bow

He played out my scenarios

with such a twisted grin

"I like to play games" he said

"And I always win"

Flashes.

Sitting in my bedroom

Reading a good book

Then I saw the lightening

The thunder shook

Pulling back the curtains

To watch battering rain

Splashes down in rivers

That tumble down the drain

Neighbours at their windows

Glancing at the sky

The beauty of our universe

Brings a tear drop to my eye

Electricity slips away

To hide back in fright

But me, I embrace this enormous wonder

With pure excited delight

I listen as it crashes

Surrounds us in it's path

Raging as a Temptress 

With an evil laugh

Storm you made the night so black

Lightening you must agree

That even though your mesmerising 

You set our feelings free

You bring a peace and stillness

When yor wrath is danced

Happy in your knowing 

You put us in a trance

So for now you fade away

Huddled up in space

I'll greet the day with open arms

When again we meet face to face. 

Dreams.

Dreams are places to play out sweet games

To run wild without any shame

To stamp your feet

shout out loud

Run to the sun and climb on clouds

Pick at the stars

climb on rainbows

Poke at the galaxy as it tickles your toes

Steal some magical moon beams

Pocket two or three

Playing games in a pretty world

Happily and free

Where you can live your fantasies

Among pools of gold

The universe in your hands

Precious for you to hold

Green petaled flowers

Candy floss sky

As you wake from a slumber

All gone in the blink of an eye

But smile at the Morning

Laugh all day

For tonight in your dreams

You can go back to play. 

Some where inside.

I tried to write a love song

You were on my mind

I screwed up bits of paper 

And scrubbed out many lines. 

I tried to think of good things

But some memories are a blur

The pictures I once took of you

No longer where they were

I tired to write a sonet

With lines so crip and clear

But I seem to have lost everything

Emotions feeling bare

I tried to paint

Your name upon my walls

Brush strokes all messy  

Holes were only scored

So I thought I would write a poem

Put these words outside

The Wind took my pen 

Rain washed it away

I will try again

Maybe

Maybe one day 

Bleeding.

What ever happend to my heart. 

Blood pours in streams. 

It seeps out through my veins

Cutting at my dreams. 

Life seems to have left me. 

Broken, tattered and torn. 

I can't feel any different

Even in Sunshine's new Morn. 

I could wrap my self in blankets

or find comfort in sheets of satin

But still my heart is bleeding

This is my life's new pattern. 

Darkness encases me

Even though light shines

Walls start to close in

On this broken heart of mine. 

I thought I had found a new Love.

I can't do it, I can't go on

Waiting to hear from you, constantly checking my phone is switched on. 

I have been through so much pain before, 

gave so much only to be ignored.

I can't let you do that to me too, 

but still I cing on, I thought you were my start of all things new.

I fell in love in just a few days,

believed when you said I gave you a feeling you could only describe as a haze.  

It is a rollercoaster that I am riding on, 

I think I am losing you, please help me Angels song. 

I need your ams, I need your soul with mine, 

I need you every day, I need you all the time. 

Phone please ring and let it be you, 

I can't be ignored it tears me in two. ...Vivienne Gill.

It may be rainging so hard out there , rainbows gone and  clouds gathered in pairs.

But all I see is bright blue skies, happy new wishes in your gorgeous eyes. 

I touch your skin and watch you smile, 

watch you sleep for just a little while .

I breathe you in and promise to be,

the one that stays close and to help set all your dreams free. 

I take your heart and hold it dear, 

with you my love, life is so clear. 

So upon his rainy, rainbow gone day, 

flowers bloom and laughter stays. 

This is purely "it" for me, 

Love in a storm, it is what's meant to be. ...Vivienne Gill

Turn the Sun blue and burn the skies red. I am left with no emotion, there is nothing, it's dead.
Pale and broken my skin has turned grey. My trust all gone. Feelings went. They ran away.
Day times are so cold and nights are so bare. Look up to the ceiling and just sit here and stare.
The ticking clock listens to pools of tears. What happened to all those glistening years ?
Throw the camera and take it away. Pictures and memories to painful to stay.
Locked in, I can't face the Sun, burn all the stars my living is done.
      Vivienne Gill

Let me fall from your fingertips and slip from your hands. Release your grasp from me , let me tred the shining sands.
Let me follow budding Bluebells and float among the stars, let Violets surround me and Angels heal my scars.
Let skies change their colours all for me, please don't be selfish, just try to set me free.
Let me have a new Dawn, where the dew clings to my soul, let me feel the fresh breeze of a world with a new goal.
Help to make it simple and understand my need , let the pretty Dandelions plant me a new seed.
Let me have new fields full of striking gold, please don't be selfish and let go of this hold. ....Vivienne Gill

Loving you is so easy, you gave my life new glow.
You showed me so much passion and released my heart to grow.
Just a few days of intense souls, pouring in together, laid in your arms and safely wishing to last  forever.
 I give you my being, everything I am. I crave your tender kisses and hold you in my hand.
Give you words of so softly whispered dreams.
 Take my heart and bind it, believe in what I say. I will hold you here always, precious in every way.
You are my new sunshine, you are all my worth. I am so very glad I found you right here on my earth. ....Vivienne Gill

Please take all this pain, tear it from my skin and pull it from my vein.
My blood running black, my heart tearing , ripped into pieces and when you turn your back.
I once was your life, everything you breathed, but now you show anger, and now you seeth.
You caused this hurt that made my Sun die, you showed no mercy when you left me to cry.
I'll fall into the sea , let the waves take me, help me dear Angles, don't forsake me.
Take me to sunshine and all that is warm, help me ride over this tumbling storm.
Give me new tides and things anew, give me a moon with clear skies in it to.
I'll plead with the Gods to give me some love, wrap me in arms sent down from above.
Give me precious light and help me walk through, into a new life with new hope in it too. ...Vivienne Gill

Perfection comes in many different forms ...so maybe we all have a touch of prefectness ! 

Dance like you have no care,
love like you give your soul,
sing like you own the stars,
and live like it’s all brand new. ...Vivienne Gill

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An Angel spoke to me today, she touched my hand and showed me the way. 
Her voice so soft and full of grace, kindness and forgiving, eyes as pretty as silk and lace. 
She gently whispered of dreams to come, said there would be stars mixed in with the sun.
 Listen to your heart she asked of me, Look into deep memories and set myself free.
 Don't be afraid, listen to my song, go ahead and live a new life long.
 I smiled in her light, her honest glow...You will always be my best Friend for all the love that you show......Vivienne Gill

There is a Sun that rules our Sky with the beautiful star that puts the glint in our eye. The Moon and at peace and shores that sway. Guiding us through every gorgeous day. Evenings so still and soft rain so pure for you to share with those your heart adore. Hold cherished ones close and whisper in their ear. Tell them of love and wipe away their tear. Give them sweet memories and build them a song. Let you heart to them always belong. .......Vivienne Gill.

I think we should all take the time to look after our friends and loved ones.
 Let them always know that we care and will always be there for them.
 Because you never know when that day will come when you lose one of them !

To love me is to know me...to accept who I am..to accept that I have a family...to put up with my crazy days...to laugh at my jokes even though they may not be funny...to accept that I am not perfect and do silly things...to hold my hand through tough times and stand by my side..and hug me when I really need it....Vivienne Gill

The storm that passed spread out its wings and created a circle of such devastating things.
 It wove it's way around your path, crashed it's fingers and stole your laugh. 
It wrapped up your love and threw it aside, encased it in rain along with your pride.
 It stole your sun and left you grey, pinned down your hopes and left you astray.
 The clouds burst in and cut your heart, pulled out your feelings and ripped them apart.
 It tried to destroy you, turn your kindness to stone and went so fast leaving you all alone. 
Threatened in darkness, and clung to cold walls, wake up the little Angels and wait for their calls.
 Let them bring back pure skies and love all abound. Let them lift up your heart and hear it's healing sound
. Let the grass feel cool under the caress of your hand and the gentle breeze mend your thoughts in the glowing sand......Vivienne Gill

Leave your past, turn your head, go out and to that new future instead. 
The stars are sparkling and looking down, let them ease away your furrowed frown.
 Cuddle the Sun and embrace it with glee, spread your wings and set yourself free. 
Laugh at the wind and feel the rain, let it wrap all around you and ease your pain.
 Go show the world your dreams are not done, you have many more that are waiting to come.
 Love again with your head held high, and take away that big heavy sigh. 
The ones that hurt you will still be there, but in distant memories where you'll still care
. Light up the dark with every new smile , start a new journey, enjoy every new mile .....Vivienne Gill

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak.... sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.

Burn the sun and kill the stars, put out all light so you can't see my scars.
 A heart breaking into no more but dust, all my dreams turned to rust.
 You took my love, you stole my soul, ground it all up and threw into a hole.
 It meant nothing more to you than cold stone, pale and afraid and left all alone. 
So shut the curtains and close the blinds, go away deep thoughts that keep you on my mind.
 I'll scream at the Moon and shout abuse at the sky, this is what if feels like when inside you die.....Vivienne Gill